Monday, December 13, 2010

Amazing Husband!

Yes, I have an amazing husband! If I had any doubts about where my husband stood in all of this adoptions stuff (and I don't), they would be all erased after that last post Charlie wrote.

I was on my way to bed when Charlie came in from a walk and asked me how to get on my blog. I showed him and went to bed (I was SO TIRED). Later the next morning I found myself sitting in front of the computer reading his sweet prayer he blogged and crying tears of joy. Wow, has God done a work in his heart (our hearts) or what? I asked him later where this "All of the sudden" need to blog came from and he said, "While I was walking that night I just felt so burdened for her. I wanted to post my thoughts to record the moment and share with others the feelings I had just in case someone else felt called to pray."

The amazing thing (ok things) about that is that I had been feeling the same thing all week, but God knew I needed rest...and rest I did that night.:) God gave the burden to Charlie to carry for the night. How sweet of Him to work in such a way. :) The 2nd thing is that just around the same time I realized just how much I am falling in love with a little girl on the other side of the world whom I have never even met. It's amazing and weird all at the same time. Never in a million years did I believe that would happen without even seeing a photo or having something to go on...Just a calling. Then to read Charlie's post, made me realize God is growing his heart too. Oh, how blessed we are!

Yes, I have an AMAZING husband and outstanding Godly father to our children...All 3 of them!!!! Love you honey.

Thursday, December 2, 2010

Dear Heavenly Father,
Lord, I praise you because you are the creator of the ends of the earth. You do not grow tired or weary and your understanding no one can fathom. You give strength to the weary and increase the power of the weak. Those who put their faith in you will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles. They will run and not grow weary. They will walk and not be faint. Who has done what you have done, calling forth the generations from the beginning? You have made all things, you alone have stretched out the heavens and spread out the earth. How awesome you are, Lord Most High! You are the great King over all the earth!

Lord, please forgive me of my sins. Create in me a pure heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me. Restore to me the joy of your salvation and grant me a willing spirit to sustain me. I need you Lord. My family needs you. My daughter needs you.

Lord, she is likely alone tonight. In an orphanage or a foster home with multiple other orphans. It is 36 degrees in Beijing and she may be cold right now. She could be in pain from some medical issue that we don't even know about yet. Lord, you have chosen us to be her family; to love her; protect her; provide for her every need. But I can't do anything to help her right now. But Lord!!!! YOU defend the cause of the fatherless!!! Though our fathers and mothers forsake us, YOU will receive us!!! Lord, you already know our daughter. You created her inmost being; you knit her together in her mother's womb. I praise you because she is fearfully and wonderfully made. How precious to me are your thoughts of her, O God! How vast is the sum of them! Were I to count them, they would outnumber the grains of sand. Lord, even when she wakes in the morning, she is still with you. But she doesn't know you (yet!). Lord, please wrap your loving arms around her tonight. Lord, calm her emotions. Give her your peace. God, that you would take away her pains. Please give her sweet dreams. Provide her with extra blankets if she is cold; good food if she is hungry; medicine if she is sick. Lord I pray you would raise up a helper to look after her; to love her and hold her; to talk to her and sing to her; to tell her that everything will be ok. Lord, send your Holy Spirit to prepare her for us. I pray you would put a vision or dream in her mind to prepare her for the day we meet. Lord, continue to prepare us for her.

Lord, please continue to mold me into the husband and father you want me to be. Show me how to be a father to a little girl. Help me to love her mommy in a way that she will have a Godly vision of the type of man to seek out one day. And Lord, I pray for the day that she will truly know your son Jesus. I thank you for this special time that you and her can have alone together. I pray that because of this special time, her heart would one day be more tender toward you. And I pray in the name of Jesus, backed by the power of the cross and His shed blood, that my daughter will grow to be a healthy, vibrant, GODLY woman who will love you and serve you all the days of her life.

Lord, you are Holy. You alone are worthy. May you and your son Jesus be glorified through our journey.

In Jesus' Name, Amen.